i am disqualified ,
because of a stupid reason ,
a reason that cannot be change from beginning ,
no matter how hard i try ,
no matter how long i wait ,
no matter how many things i’ve sacrifice,
nothing have change ,
i m still the same ,
i m disqualified ………………
from the beginning , i thought there is miracles in this world, at least i hope miracles could appear in my dream , i m not asking for an eternal dream either , just give me some short but sweet dreams , sleepless nights has got me bad, i keep on thinking about you, there is nothing i can do , but wait, but, how long i have to wait? i look into the mirror, i saw nothing but an hopeless soul,a restless mind,and an abandoned life, a life that full of sorrow and tears, a life of the dark side of a simple human, who need nothing but love , it is his fault to chase upon his beloved? it is wrong to fall in love ? it is the fate of his life ? or it is the punishment of being weak? or punishment for being to naive or innocent ? maybe i should be born to be stronger in the next life , to avoid myself to get harmed , by the cruel creatures named HUMAN, because of a stupid word " Love " , i’ve became your slave. because of love i have lost myself and hapiness , and is that the sacrifice of being someone in love???
Study is what i like , study is what i want , n study is what i need ,
Love is what make my life colourful , but love make my world seems so cruel , so dark , love can bring hapiness but also can bring sad ,
work is my responsible , work give me money , which can bring me sum material happiness …
but when i have to choose one of them , which would be my choice ??????
the auntumn has pass ,
the hope has gone , as my life is dark .
i lost myself in the loneliness,i m so confused ,
i cant see , i cant hear , i cant breath , i cant feel ,
i felt so useless …,
i love you , but i cant felt the love from u ,
i wanna study , but i cant afford it ,
i have to work to survive but i dont like it ,
when the whisper of summer blew into my life,
i know its a hard n long way 2 go ,
i m so tired n exhausted ,
i need a rest , i need sumone 2 care of me
i need love , but where is my love ?
where r u , My love ???
i m a blank paper without any love notes ,
when will sumone came into my life to fill in the blanks a write sum romantic poem on it ? or at least write sumthing to make my tears fall into the floor , n make my world full of colours of the rainbow ? i miss u , i love u , but ………………i have to forget u ………….
without study i have no future ,
without work i cant live in tis materialistic world ,
without love i m nothing but an empty soul……
haiz ,
i m too bad luck recently , having a minor dental surgery recently , n use about rm 500 , heart paining , n even tooth paining too , have to cut my tooth gum to take out tat stupid teeth , damn pain man !!! tat day sumore even non - stop bleeding ,haiz , lost a lotz money and blood !!!!
hate tis life !!!!!!!
but still heart paining is much more pain than tooth pain , even is damn pain , i mens my teeth ………. hope tat i can get myself out of tis pain world ….. as soon as possible !!!! please ….
i wanted a change in my life ,
i want sumthing new , sumthing interested , sumthing can make my life worth it , sumthing tat can make me smile alll day long , sumthing tat can make me forget all those stupid things i have done in the pass , erase all my sad memories , as well start a new life where i can tell myself , i m i , i life for myself , not 4 anyone else in tis world , maybe 4 my mum , but no 1 deserve anything from me , coz nobody have really understand me , wat i m thinking , i wanna be myself , i wanna treat myself better , dun wan 2 suffer anymore , i m totally sick of it , let me go , i love u , but now tat i know i hate u more than i love u , coz this kind of HATE feeling was born from the LOVE i have pour onto u , it grew on the day u make cry…….
sumtimes i m wondering , why you would treat me so ? wondering what i have done wrong ? wondering am i tat irritating for u ? and keep on wondering it is my faith to be like tat ? a bunches of questions keep on playing on my mind , as its went empty , totally blank , cant think anymore , i m stunt , i m lost , i m confused………please if sumone could get me out of tis world ……i m exhausted
i m sick,
sick of his behaviour ,
stupid behaviour ,tat make me angry sumtimes ,
but later on , evything gonna be fine like usual ,
i dun understand wat is playing on my mind ,
i even confused wat do i reli like and love ?
i love you or him?
or She ? Or sumone i havent met yet ,
hope the person will be a person who pamper n care of me ,
till the day i die . sumtimes i m juz thinking tat should i juz walk out of the relationship , but i know i still love u , but i m sure times can make me forget u , n let me find a better person , i m not looking for sumone good looking , nor sumone rich , nor sumone intelligent , nor perfect , i juz want sumone who reli care of me from the bottom of their heart , n love me for who i am , i can only be myself , i love sumone for who they are , i wont care of anything else , but at least treat me as sumone u care…..,not sumone u hate …..please
tis time u r even cruel than ever ,
we see each other everyday , but its seems like there are something between us , which stop me from talk 2 u , i felt so hard , i cant even talk 2 u , like before , we r not close anymore , it is because we known each other 4 a long time ? or u hated me? i dun know , i juz wish to have a proper or a better solution sumtimes , i know i love u , but we cant be together . i dun mind , but at least dun treat me so , i cant hardly breath , i miss our last time , how we talk , how we laugh , n now , all those is juz sum memories , maybe i should jz give up n go, but still i love u…………………..
