pOlArBEaR

what if u know that the one u love i not going to love you? not even a single minutes or seconds? it was a very very terrible feeling , it was the most painfull moment in my life , get to know that u will never love me, in my whole life , i means forever , forever not loving me , not even a bit , i couldnt cry out , i couldnt scream out ,i was so lost , it was like losing the confident and the hope , the light , and the meaning to live on , i try to look into your eyes , hopefully to find a tiny of sympathise , or a small donation of love to me as the gift of all the sacrification i have done for you , or at least a sincere word " thank you " , as the appreciation for our relationship , or maybe a single concern and care , no matter it was true or just an act , because i need nothing but you , but when times grow further , longer , the tiny hopes of mine has lost , your cruelness have killed it , and now i m a lost soul who have lost everything , include itself ,

from the way u look into my eyes ,

from the feel in my heart ,

from the way  you tell me that you don’t love me,

i knew that you love me …,

no matter how hard you try to avoid me ,

no matter how cruel you treat me ,

no matter how much tears i’ve pour out ,

no matter how you say , you don’t love me,

i still can feel the way you care of me ,

and the feeling of love that came beneath our relationship ,

i just hope that you could understand that love is unpredictable ,

you will never know when it comes , how its comes ,

or who is the one ,

who fill in the gaps between ur fingers ,

who fill in the blanks of our life ,

who colour our life with the colour of the joy and love ,

i may not be the perfect one ,

i may not be your only one ,

i may not be with you forever , and ever ,

but i just hope that in this very very short moment ,

we can treasure each others concern ,

the time being together ,

we are fate to be together , but not forever ,

we cant fight the rythms of reality ,

nor the nature law of the entire world ,

but we still can love each other ,

loving doesnt means being together ,

loving doesnt means seing each other ,

as long as in both of our heart ,

there are a space of each others ,

as long as a decade , or a millenium ,

a long as we love each other ,

no one can ever stop us ,

to love and to be loved ,

i love you and i knew you love me….