Archive for March, 2008

its the end …

this time i know its reli the end of our frenship, coz u have decided to end it without any pity to me !! ok fine , finally i have the chance to get myself out of tis ruined life and lead to another happier life !! haha , so happy !! i still remember tat day ,how  cheap i m, begging u to be my fren, say sorry !! but wat i get is a simple yet HURT word , " NO , DIU CHAU !!! " a single tat was so meaningful , coz this words can make me so dissapointed !!!  wat a wonderfull word ! Congratulation !! U have thrown a BIG RUBBISH out of ur life !!! No more stupid ppl bothering u !! anyway i have thanks u for letting me go so tat i can start a better a new life , hehehe!!

u hate me so much ?

recently , i am so unhappy ,so lost , i dun know what i have done to make so hate me , hate me till dun even want to talk to me , we have no more conversation , we have no more sharing problems like we use tohave last time ,we are fren, n i love u so much , i never ever dreaming of being together with u , but at least dun trea me lik this , i m so suffered , i m wondering what i have done wrong , to make u hate me so much , is loving sumone is wrong ? then i m wrong , its my fault !!! yesterday the whole day u didint talk even a single word to me , i m so sad , feel so bad , dun noe wat i should do , it is the end of our frenship? is there nothing else thatcan save it? i sms u , again n again , asking u why u hate me so much? then ask u what i have done wrong ? askig u why ? i keep on waiting 4 ur reply , but i have waited for so long , so long , we are living together in the same hse , u r living next room , but i m so coward , i dn even have the courage to ga to ur room n ask u , but keep on sms - ing u , i know u havent sleep , n tat moment my tears starting to pour out so fast , it have hurt so deep , i cant hardly breathe , i cry , cry n cried , but i worry tat u ould hear me cryin , so i turn on the music , listening to tha sweet love song , make me cry even louder , thinking why i cant have a love story like them ? even ihave done my best , sacrifice a lots , i get nothing but a sad ending like tis , i dun deserve tis , i love u is not wrong , i have waited for 3 years , i do a lot, alots , until now i think its the times to give up of u , bcoz there are no me in ur heart , not even a tiny space , i m just a stupid , a stranger , someone who dun deserve anything from u , not even a single pity , i m the only one u hate ,,,,,,,, n why u are the only one i love……

you’re the only one…

today i sit on the wheel barrel & look up to the sky , and i discover it is really high and  far away , i could not even touch it , but only see it , and i felt it was like me,& my life , i could see you , but you are always far away from me, not because of the distance , but the gap between us, that make me feel so bad , so cold & so lonely , i love you , andi know you are the only one for me, but in the other side , i m just a stranger who is bothering your life , some one who is always disturbing your life , someone irritated , i know nothing is gonna stop me from loving you , & nothing is gonna make you love me but i promise that i will always be around , to guide n guard you , standing behind you , not far away , but far enough from your eyes side , because i know you dislike me , i promise ………