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sometimes it took a long time for me to understand something that i don’t know , but this time finally i understand a very important point , which may lead myself at least to a better life , maybe coz when u think through sumthings , & open ur mind , you will find how beautiful your life is , how fortunate we are to be here , & how god love us compare to the others…., but why humans are always a demanding creature , they will never satisfied with what they are given , & keep on demanding for more & more , they dun even noe there are someone outhere who is more need than us , who just need sum basic of life , they didnt do anything wrong too , but why the god have to punish them like that ? & why we are here still not satisfied wit what we have …. & appreciate those in fronts of us , appreciate those times left , & lead on a happy life …times is limited , as well as out youth & life , why not use is more pratically & usefull ? like helping the others , n those in needs ….

it was a long tiring day , since i start work 2 job in a day , i know it could be hard n tough day for me , but to forget sum unhappy things, it seems this is the only way……., busy-ing myself with a lots of task n works , will automatically deduct the time for me to think of you ,to bring me far away from you one step by one step , & now i get a new friend where i m quite close to him , but close wasnt a good things at all , everybody thinks tat i m so cheap , n so fast to forget the one i love , n start a new love life , but please nobody really understand me , i still can forget you , how can i start to love sumbody else ??? i just treat him as a good friend of mine , where i could share my problems with , not sumone i love , but everybody seems to be misunderstood me , saying tat i love him , saying tat i sacrifice for him , saying tat i do everything for him , but in fact , in my heart ……, he is just a close frens of mine , even he also think that i m in love with him , haiz ,….. am i really that cheap ? or it is my fault for treating a close friend if mine good , or care of him is over ???? haiz , really dun understand the limit of a true friend ,  maybe friend is not important for you , but i can tell you that i put my fren & family first , in front of myself ……i love all of my frens