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today , i look into the mirror , i saw myself , alone….. then i ask myself a whole bunchs of stupid questions , like " Why i am so lonely ? " , " Why nobody want me ? "…….& lots more , i can answer it all with a very positive answer , but when it comes to this question , i’ve stopped , stunt , blur & lost , i really don’t have an answer for it, i started again , questioning myself again & again , until i m really tired of it, i look again into the mirror , i saw myself , i shout loud , " Why are you so useless ? " ….my tears started to drop,one by one , i didnt cry out , coz i know i m not suppose to be crying, not worth it!!! I know !!! but i reallly wishes to know how important i am in everyone heart ………especially in your heart, can you tell me ,please…..

sometimes i m just wondering , what i am in your heart ? a person who just pass by your life , or a person who left a scar or maybe a person u gonna remember till the day u die ???? I m just so confused , u cant look into ur heart , i cant read ur mind , nor undertand what are u thinking about , i just know sometimes you treat bad , but u treat me well as well , hehe !! It may sounds so funny but yet it is true , tat day i was feel so hurt when u wrongly / accidentaly @ purposely send a msg 2 me , but actually not suppose 2 send 2 me , but another person , a person who u treasure more than me , a person u love n care more than me , & of cos a person who is much more important than me, i think …..& what hurt me so bad is the content of tat msg , its a story of mine,& of cos a bad one…….., i reli  dun know how to react to the msg on the 1st , but i reli hurt n angry of u ……so dissapointed , eventhough a sorry cant cure the injury u cause me , coz its reli hurt so bad , hurt deeply , leaving a scar in my heart, forever n ever ….i m gonna remember the day of the scar born , coz its teach me a lots , i start to grew up n of cos i hope u wont hurt me anymore , bcos i love u as a very best frens of mine …..