please
i ask myself if i could just act so cool , like nothing have happen , like i never pour out this feeling on you , but i couldnt stop myself from being a slave of love , i knew i love you , but i also know that we are not fated to be together ,not even a second , but sometimes i just cant block the feelings that came from the bottom of my heart , it just came like that , without any notification , without any acknowledgement , i m so tired , to hide my love from you , i see you everyday , but i still cant do anything …just to see yoy from beside , i knew you have found your love , & fortunately she love you too , but i m not as lucky as you , i love but from the single side , whenever i look on you , i feel the crashed , & the burn of the flame of love , but i m too coward to tell that i love you so much , i try my best to give u everything u like , but i m just a normal human like the others , limited to some border line , i never hope you will love me but at least dont hurt me like you always do , i m just a tiny creature, i have feelings too,do you understand how i felt when i saw you sms-ing her? how hard i felt when you call her everynight ?? how hurt i felt when i hear you told her you miss her so much ???? i know i will never have that kind of changes in my life , not even a single time, but sometimes i just so jealous of her , how blissfull she is , can be loved by you , how happy her life are , got a person who care n love her ….
but what make me felt even hurt is when u say u r going marry her in 2 years times , when u tell me that u have found your true love , its was a nightmare when i m thinking of both of you together ,doing some intimate actions,i m so lost …my heart is so pain, like you have pull a dagger into it , my heart are totally broken , will you sympathise me with a bite of love , so that i can have a little happy memories with you , so that whenever i m alone at least i can tell myself we are happy before ,i really care & concern of you, i love you , n i hope you know too…….at least you wont be doing much things to hurt me anymore
