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sometimes i just wonder what i am in your heart , am i really a friends of yours? if yes , then why you treat me so ? why you treat me like a fool ? why you can just act like nothing even you have hurt me so bad ? why you can always act like nothing have happen ? i m so tiring of being a friend of yours, not just only being a tools but also being a fool…can you treat me equally fair? I have ever thought of  not to think about anything anymore,just act cool like you….but i really i cant , i m breathless, i m lost….. i cant always hide myself into the problems, i gotta solve it , so i choose to give up our friendships….i m so sorry ……i didnt mean to give up , but your act always force me to do so…….pls always take care yourself & may god bless you have a better life….

sometimes i wondered , if i didnt ever exist in your life , would your relationship with her would be better then now ? Did i make any mistakes until i have spoiled your luv life ? I really feel so bad whenever i m thinking of it , coz it seems like since i & u become so close , your relationship with her have break , more & more worst , i felt like i m so bad , i m such a bastard …. but now i know i m not wrong , its not my fault , i even thinking of spoiling it by my own hand , i started becoming a human with a ” Purpose Heart ” , i really don’t understand why u treat me so because of her , i didnt do anything , i just wanna be your friend , not more than that ….but u started avoiding like i m so terrible , i really felt damn bad , i even ask myself it is my fault??  Then …i shout to myself , i ask myself , ” Are u crazy ???!!! ” Its not my fault !!!! & I cant stop u from doing anything , its your choice ….then suddenly i felt much more better , finally i find a way out for our friendship , its the LET GO ….. i told myself no more putting a real heart towards this relationship coz i don’t wanna get hurt anymore ,u have choose to hurt me & i have choose to let go our friendship, i m so sorry …..

“Every night i talk to the stars, pretending its u , & its acts just like u , far away & never replies me …..,”

~ i know what u r thinking now , i know why you treat me so , i know the reason why u ignore & avoiding from seeing me, i know ….., i understand i cant control wat u think & what u do , but at least don’t treat me like a fool or like a tools , I M NOT !! I m ur fren, i care & concern of u , because i love u , but i just love u as a very best fren of mine , a fren who i will treasure always , a fren who i trust will support me whenever i in need , a true fren who i can count on, but now i know i m wrong , totally wrong….coz u have choose to give up our frenship, u do too much things to make me hate of u ,& i can tell u r success !!! u r the winner !!! i reli hate of u , since u force me to let go this relationship , i will say yes to u , anyway i reli hope u will be more happy after get me kicked out of ur life , i hope u will always be happy ,no matter what ,i m always here for you…..