Archive for December, 2008

the away

today , i m at the other side of the world writing these , where usually i wrote my blogs at malaysia ( mostly at cyber cafe , due to i dun have internet at my hse ) but this blog is my 1st blog to be created at Poipet, Cambodia …the feeling is much more different here , where i don’t have any friends here , where i can’t communicate with the ppl here , coz most of them don’t understand english at ALL ….poorly me still thinking of how to talk to them , as u know certain things @ stuffs can’t be explain even u r using body language ( laughing  by myself , damn silly ) i was thinking the best way to communicate with them but still i don’ have any clue how to do so , so i told myself it is i m not good enough or maybe they are not good enough?? i really don’t know….the life here is a bit relax actually where i feel myself at a place where evyone is a stranger , the place where i don’t know , de kids are playing footballs all around , like kampung feels but there are a lots of big buildings here where the CASINO is , coz actually here can be consider as a CASINO WORLD ….i have to be here maybe around 2 weeks to help my cousin brother to set up the bar section 4 his cafe here , so i really hope at least i can cope with the life here  ,i miss MALAYSIA so much !!!!!!!!!! i miss everything there ….& i miss u

am i still in love with you?

although its has passed a long time ago, but everytime when i see you , the feeling is still there , but maybe its not ” Burning” like last time , just some happy & sad memories that last in my heart for ever …., but i really don’t know if this is good or bad, coz from the beginning i understand that love wont exist in between us,just friendship,but i just cant control myself from falling like last times , but this times is different , i can control by just treating as a very best friend of me , i just hope that we can share everythings together as happiness,tears…..etc,anyway i really hope that you could find someone who love you more than i do , who can take care of you for the rest of your life ,as  i cant do that……i miss u , i love you , but we are best friend forever …