same things means different meaning for different people…
today was a really a tiring day coz my mind cant even rest a while , i keep on thinking the same thing since yesterday , since my cousin brother told me that i will go to work at Cambodia after chinese new year , that means it is within this month , the month that i will never forget , the month that make me cry the most i think , the month i leave my own country , the month i know that you will never love me, the month that will change my current life ….a month that my heart pain the most…., today i also discover that sometimes same things brings different meaning for different people , i know i m gonna split with you , my heart was so paining , i will also have to split with my dear mummy , my family & all my friends , i really feel so bad about leaving you …firstly i thought u will gonna feel the way like i feel but from the mimic of your faces when i told you the truth , i know its means nothing for you , u wont feel bad , its just a very simple & ordinary things for u , maybe i can say that i m not important in ur heart , or maybe i can think that i m just a passer or a just a stranger that came into ur life for a very short period of times , that leave nothing in your mind , not even a single memory …not even a small affection …but in this times we know each other , how we start , how our relationship grew further , how we quarrel & back together ,how much i sacrifice …..i clearly remember everything ….i wont forget every single moment we spend together coz u have really make feel you really care of me, the feeling of warm, even its jus a very very short moment , its like a very sweet dreams but also a very short dreams , i know lastly i will have to wake up & face the fact that we are not faded to be together …i love you more than anything ,more than myself….i will miss you
