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today is just like the other day , not a happy day ….,

i sit at the living room , a living room that is totally empty …just like my life, empty…without anyone care of me , but actually that doesn’t really matter , what make me feel even worst is the way you treat me , like a stupid , like a tool & like a fool … when i really know you don’t care of my feeling , my heart was so paining ….i cry , cry & cried , eventhough i know cry can’t solve the problem ,  can’t help me anything but beside crying i really don’t know what else i can do …. maybe after i cry i would feel better i think ….hopefully i cry & shout like a crazy guy alone in the living room & it really help , i really felt much more better , & even thinking of a best way to get myself out of this s**t relationship , i rather f**ked OFF myself to get away from this kinda stuffz …i know its enough,enough !!!! Beside giving up i really don’t know what to do coz from the beginning i already know the result , from the start i already know i don’t even have the qualification to get myself into the games , coz i don’t even have the very basic qualification , just like asking someone blind to participate in marathon …..it is imposibble & i really understand now , but what i don’t understand is i already don’t have the qualifications to enter the games but why do the ” Participant ” still keep on doing things that make me feel bad & sad , maybe she really hate me so much !!! i lose from the beginning ….but why still you wanna hurt me so….love is not my fault but i will go,i promise…as long as i m not around you , you & her might grew better ,as i can forget you easier  …..i will try not to love you but can you promise me not to hurt me anymore as i am human , i got feelings too….