pOlArBEaR

Life is so weird sometimes , as we know sometimes life brings us happiness such like love , family , career , luck etc but life also brought us unhapiness which is death , apart etc . I started wondered why the god create this kind of things to happen on us , the human . I keep on thinking & thinking , today maybe i’ve finally understand the reason behind the reason the god create this …its the BALANCE …its just my guess . of course i’m not sure if what i think is right or wrong but i’ve the right to believe it …in order to keep the humans populations in balance as we have limited space in earth so the god create death …because with Birth there is Death …this is something we can’t avoid as we can’t denied …Birth is Happiness while Death is Sadness …Everything in this world is in a natural balance actually just that we can’t see it clearly . When i begin to understand this , i started to accept the death coz if i don’t accept it , i just can only live in darkness or live in the sadness … why not i lead a better life ? why not i enjoy the times that left ? right ? The god only create the Birth & the Death …but in the middle of this we are given the right & freedom to take decision how we wanna live …how we want our life to be ? What we wanted to do …….But the durations for everyone is different depends on what we have done in the pass life …as after we die we will be born in other side of the world as the other people …if i m not mistaken this is what we called KARMA…maybe ..hehe…so we must have appreciate those times left & do all the things we wish to do …don’t waste your single minutes as we really never know when is our Death come…as we also must Do More Good Things In This Life ….as our coming life will be more happier & longer…( This is what i think , if i have make anyone feel unhappy about the Believe ,pls do forget me )

to jeevan , my dearest friend ,

i reli hope that you could hear this … ur leaving make such a big impact of my life,i begin to think what is the truly reason for being a human when at the end our faith is the same which is death … today morning i received the msg from a friend …i was still in sleep that time, as the message alert rang , i shouted to myself who’s the hell sending msg to me early in the morning?! ..but…when i read the content of it my tears starting  to drop one by one ….non stop . The sms written ” Jeevan passed away yesterday at redang.He drowned. The funeral ceremony will be tonight .” I read that for few times , i hope i m dreaming , i hope i m blind , i hope that i cant understand the sms, but the truth is the truth …i told myself this aint gonna be true…they are making somekind of jokes with me , they must be kiddin me …all those stupid reason that comes to cheat & to lie to myself that you are not dead…this even make me cry even harder , i cant stop the tears from dropping , i miss you so much …i have always been missing you but i just kept that in my heart, i never told anyone about that…i sit on the bed silently , crying silently , thinking back & reflecting back those memories we have together at the school…how close we are…how we fight & tease each others with somekind of stupid nickname like “Polar” which means me in your heart, instead i really like this name so much ..i really meant it …being in the same class with ya for 4 years on roll have make my life more colourfull more happier more meanings & even make no regret being a human as i have a friend , a best friend like you . You always famous as the lazy brad in the class …whereby i will always help u prepare ur stuffz , clean & tidy the desk of yours … remind you about the important matters …help u clean your ditry school bag which smelled just like the Hindu smell, by the way you are a indian boy too, i nearly forget that coz you are so fair & much more good looking guy than the others…especially those killing smile !!! Miss that so much!!! All those things we do together will forever be in my heart… I really dunno how to describe the feeling i have right now,i felt like losing something very important , a gem of my life where i will treasure it always,i remembered every single moment of you from the 1st time i saw you till today…08 May 2009 a day that brought you away , a day that i will never forget , not bcoz today i cry the most but today i have lost a friend is very important to me…today onwards i will have a different perception of life …. appreciate those living days …enjoy it to the fullest as life is too fragile & short …unpredictable,no one will know what will happen in the future …why not we live today to the best we can … anyway i m sure that you are now in the arms of the god where he love & care of you …where he held you & lead you the right path where the world beneath the life whereby there are only happiness there…peace & harmony, where all those unhappy memories we gain will be erased forever … you will gonna smile all the times …loved & be loved by everyone around you , coz i m sure you have the most charming smile among the others … hehe! But Can you please not to forget me ? the polar …coz i m sure our memories is the happy memories only…please..promise me ya ?? i will always love you as the best friend of mine …& you dun have to worry about me here as i will not be living in the sad for a long time , i dun think you like to see me cry everyday ,i dun think u like to see an unhappy baby polar bear ? Am i right ? Jeevan , Jeevan , Jeevan , Jeevan , JeevaN !!! Let me call out your name for the last time…i m so sorry that i cant attend your funeral ceremony coz i m too far away..if i could i would …but i have tried my best …hope you would understand me…i m the most desperately person who wanna see you for the last time ….to pay you the last respect as a best friend but i couldnt, reli sorry….always miss you…

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