pOlArBEaR

to jeevan , my dearest friend ,

i reli hope that you could hear this … ur leaving make such a big impact of my life,i begin to think what is the truly reason for being a human when at the end our faith is the same which is death … today morning i received the msg from a friend …i was still in sleep that time, as the message alert rang , i shouted to myself who’s the hell sending msg to me early in the morning?! ..but…when i read the content of it my tears starting  to drop one by one ….non stop . The sms written ” Jeevan passed away yesterday at redang.He drowned. The funeral ceremony will be tonight .” I read that for few times , i hope i m dreaming , i hope i m blind , i hope that i cant understand the sms, but the truth is the truth …i told myself this aint gonna be true…they are making somekind of jokes with me , they must be kiddin me …all those stupid reason that comes to cheat & to lie to myself that you are not dead…this even make me cry even harder , i cant stop the tears from dropping , i miss you so much …i have always been missing you but i just kept that in my heart, i never told anyone about that…i sit on the bed silently , crying silently , thinking back & reflecting back those memories we have together at the school…how close we are…how we fight & tease each others with somekind of stupid nickname like “Polar” which means me in your heart, instead i really like this name so much ..i really meant it …being in the same class with ya for 4 years on roll have make my life more colourfull more happier more meanings & even make no regret being a human as i have a friend , a best friend like you . You always famous as the lazy brad in the class …whereby i will always help u prepare ur stuffz , clean & tidy the desk of yours … remind you about the important matters …help u clean your ditry school bag which smelled just like the Hindu smell, by the way you are a indian boy too, i nearly forget that coz you are so fair & much more good looking guy than the others…especially those killing smile !!! Miss that so much!!! All those things we do together will forever be in my heart… I really dunno how to describe the feeling i have right now,i felt like losing something very important , a gem of my life where i will treasure it always,i remembered every single moment of you from the 1st time i saw you till today…08 May 2009 a day that brought you away , a day that i will never forget , not bcoz today i cry the most but today i have lost a friend is very important to me…today onwards i will have a different perception of life …. appreciate those living days …enjoy it to the fullest as life is too fragile & short …unpredictable,no one will know what will happen in the future …why not we live today to the best we can … anyway i m sure that you are now in the arms of the god where he love & care of you …where he held you & lead you the right path where the world beneath the life whereby there are only happiness there…peace & harmony, where all those unhappy memories we gain will be erased forever … you will gonna smile all the times …loved & be loved by everyone around you , coz i m sure you have the most charming smile among the others … hehe! But Can you please not to forget me ? the polar …coz i m sure our memories is the happy memories only…please..promise me ya ?? i will always love you as the best friend of mine …& you dun have to worry about me here as i will not be living in the sad for a long time , i dun think you like to see me cry everyday ,i dun think u like to see an unhappy baby polar bear ? Am i right ? Jeevan , Jeevan , Jeevan , Jeevan , JeevaN !!! Let me call out your name for the last time…i m so sorry that i cant attend your funeral ceremony coz i m too far away..if i could i would …but i have tried my best …hope you would understand me…i m the most desperately person who wanna see you for the last time ….to pay you the last respect as a best friend but i couldnt, reli sorry….always miss you…

polar…